Rough times

When I lived in Florida, I dreamed of one day moving home to be close to our families. Maine is where we grew up and I really wanted to raise our children there. My dream came true a little less then two years ago, but it's been anything but a dream. The fact that my Mom can pop on in anytime is great, I love that. The fact that we see her every other Friday and have a little girls day is wonderful too. But that is pretty much where it ends, well no wait, there is the fact that after about four years of being a depressed and negative person, nearly impossible to talk to, my Dad is finally coming around. OK, that is it. It seems more and more lately that our decision to move up here was one of the worst ones we've ever made. Between the nine months of living with my parents while we tried to sell our house in Florida, which reaked havoc on my marriage as well as my relationship with my parents, having two miscarriages within a couple of months, and now our house down there looking at possible Foreclosure or Short sale, things have been feeling pretty low lately. I feel like maybe God tried to tell us not to move but we didn't listen. My husband says that God doesn't want us to suffer so he disagrees, but I say that God knew that this is how it would be for us if we moved and he tried to tell us not to, and we didn't listen. That is free will, and that is the consiquences of going down the other path. So many times I pray and wait for an answer, I think I'm listening but I must not be because I feel like I never get an answer. Does anyone else feel like they just can't seem to hear him? I remind myself every time I try to have a pitty party that things could be soooo much worse. My children are all healthy, we are healthy, we still have our home here, we still have jobs and food and clothes. We have so much to be thankful for and I try so hard every time I pray to start my prayers off with how thankful I am. It's just hard, hard to think that we may have to throw away everything we've worked so hard for for the last seven years. I know we will get through this, I know God has his hand in this and he will help us through, it's just hard to know what the right decision is right now. I pray that the answer will come.