Saturday, January 24, 2009


Ok, I am seriously blog illiterate!! I'm trying to add a button to the side of my page and I cannot do it!!!!! RRRRGGGGGG..... Can anyone help me? Please leave me a comment if you can help. Thank you!

UPDATE: Did you see?? I figured it out!!! Yay me!!! I'm seriously addicted to this blog. She is an amazing women and makes me want to be a better mother, wife, human, just plain better about sums it up. You should check out her blog.

Friday, January 23, 2009

Just me and my girls

My sweetheart went to help his twin brother put new windows in his house today. Just in case I didn't mention this before, I live in Maine, my brother-in-law lives in northern Maine. Yeah, Baby, it's cold outside. Why would he want to put his windows in this time of year you ask? Who knows, but my wonderful, generous husband wanted to help his bro so who am I to stand in the way? That meant that I got to have a girls day today. My mom watched the two younger ones this morning while I went to an appointment. Then I took them out to lunch and then grocery shopping, (we're having our best friends over for fondue tomorrow night! Yum Yum) We went and picked Ava up from school and made our way home, Charlotte fell fast asleep in the car so I laid her in her bed and then put in The Sound of Music, which I'm sure will restart the requests for 4 more children to complete the 7 that my daughters see as our complete family! I made dinner while the movie played, went and got Charlotte, changed her diaper, paused movie, served dinner and then the highlight of our day...... we made hot fudge sundaes!!! Yummy! I un-paused the movie and cleaned up and then plopped down on the couch with my girls to finish The Sound of Music. I fell asleep. Two hours of sleep last night finally caught up with me. When the movie ended I ushered my little ones upstairs and patience not being my friend this evening I got them ready for bed as quickly as I could. Prayers, kisses, lights out! Mani/pedi, shows on my DVR, and late night snacks here I come!!!! Oh, and I do miss you baby! :) Night Night

Sunday, January 18, 2009

A Little Bit About Me

Whenever I go to a new blog the first thing I want to do is find out about that person. Sometimes I go through pages and pages of archives before I can figure out who these people are and whether I want to continue reading their blog. So I decided I would devote one whole post to telling the things about me that I think matter.

I am 28, I met my amazing husband Shawn, in high school. I was boy crazy at a very young age. I mean I started chasing them in Kindergarten for heavens sake! I was one of those girls that thought I was going to marry every boyfriend I had, which was only like 3 before I met Shawn. Yeah he was hot stuff back then, well, he still is really! I was a Freshmen and he was a Junior and he had an identical twin brother. Oh my, was I smitten! A mutual friend introduced us and then a few days later he gave me his number! I still get butterflies just thinking about those days! So, I called, I really wanted to go out with this guy!! Our first date was to a Friday night football game. I chewed on his leather key chain the whole night, I was soooo nervous! I would like to say that the rest is history and we lived happily ever after but that wasn't the case. We stayed together for four years, even a year long distance before I graduated and headed out to college where he was at. We lived a year away and then came home, got engaged and then split up. I lived life on the edge, so to speak, while he stayed mostly on the straight and narrow. We got back together, split up again and then managed to find our way back together again. Shawn proposed to me again and I readily accepted. Not every women gets a second chance at her prince charming. We were married 8 mos later in a Catholic mass wedding. It was beautiful, hot, but beautiful, and amazing, I still couldn't believe that I was marrying this man, it seemed like a dream. We moved to South Carolina right after we returned from our honeymoon. Our oldest daughter Ava was born in Jan the following year and when she was 7 mos old we were transferred down to Florida. We lived there for four years and had two more little girls, Anabelle, born 11-04 and Charlotte 11-06. After Charlotte was born we decided it was time to try and move home. Even though we made a great life down in Florida, we missed our families terribly and it was getting harder to go home and visit them. Shawn's company transferred us home to Maine and we lived with my parents for nine months while we waited for our house to sell, in the worst market that this country had seen in years. It still hasn't sold, but we're renting it out. We bought an old, two story four square, we fell in love with the old built ins and beautiful woodwork. It's small for our family but we're planning on adding an addition. I have been a stay at mom since Ava was born but the move to Maine forced me to work part time. I work 25 hours a week at night while Shawn is with the girls. It isn't our ideal but we make it work and remind ourselves that it is temporary. We found out in June that we were expecting number four, but at our 8 week checkup the ultrasound showed no heartbeat on our little bean. It was devastating. I am so grateful for my children, they are healthy, strong, smart and beautiful, I couldn't ask for more, but we really wanted that baby too. We decided to naturally try to prevent until we healed but the day after Christmas we found out we were expecting again, my best friend found out the week before that she too was expecting, her first. We were so excited, but I was so scared, and rightfully so. On Jan 1st I miscarried that baby too. I know that God has a better plan for me then I have for myself, but this has really tested my faith. I don't understand and my heart is broken, but I know he is with me and I have an amazing support system. My dear husband doesn't want us to get pregnant again because he doesn't want to see me go through this again but I think that we both just need some time. I tend to learn lessons the hard way and this second miscarriage has driven me to my knees and forced me to call out to God the Father. I hope and pray that one day he sees fit to bless our family again. For now, I will hold the three little ones I have a little closer and tell them how much I love them a little more, because I know just how precious life is and how quickly these blessings can be gone from our lives.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Hello Blog World!

Well, I decided that 2009 would be the year that I would start a blog. I know it might take up a little more of my precious time, that I seem to have less and less of these days, but I think it'll be worth it. When I was younger I used to write, a lot. I would write short stories and letters to people that I'd never send but were filled with things that I needed to get out. It was my way of journaling. I've tried in recent years to start journaling but I never stick with it, I'm always too tired at the end of the day to grab my journal and write about my day. Also, my husband gets a bit jealous when there is anything/anyone in bed with us at night, he likes me all to himself! :) By the way we have three little girls, so that would be the someone else. Come on now people!! I thought it would be a great gift to myself to have this blog to look back at. Since I plan on posting lots of pictures, what a great way to look back into my "archives" and see how my daughters have changed, how life has changed. I look forward to making new blogging friends and being inspired more and more by the amazing women out there in this blogging world! I do still have a lot to learn though, do I have some questions...... like how do I put a little button on the side of my blog, and how do I make a fancy banner or background, and how do I add a music player?? I'm going to need one whole day to figure this all out, aren't I? OK, well enough lurking on other people's blogs, time to make my own!!!