Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Catch up time!!!

So I'm going to be playing catch up for a little while since I'm apparently a slacker blogger! I will date them appropriately so they will go in order. I think I got discouraged because I didn't have any comments which made me think that no one was even visiting. I've come to realize lately however that it's really not about the people who come to read my blog but about the memories that this blog will capture for me and my family. It will force me to pick up my camera more and to spend a little more time focusing on the good things that have happened each day. So my goal is to blog each day, even if only a tiny bit.

Monday, May 18, 2009


Well now that they've seen their sister be a beautiful ballerina they've all caught the dance fever! Aren't they too cute!

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Pizza, picnic, and a movie

We decided that it would be fun to have a living room picnic with pizza and a movie. It's been a boring Saturday so we thought we'd liven it up a bit before bedtime! The girls thought it was the best thing since sliced bread! I love how easy they are to please, well most of the time anyway! :)

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Shake Your Tail Feathers!

My Ava, she had her first dance class this spring and this was her year end recital. She was so adorable and we were so proud!! Dancing is definitely her thing and she's good at it! I can't wait to watch her grow in this new love.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Soooo excited!

My girls are so excited to be big sisters, again and for the first time! Just seeing thier little faces light up warmed my heart. Hopefully they will forgive my future hormonal days in which I'm grumpy, or irritable or even irrational, cause that will happen I'm sure!

Monday, April 20, 2009

Our little peanut!

Oh I can't even begin to tell you how my heart soared during this ultrasound! I was literally holding my breath while my midwife got everything set up, and then when the picture on the screen showed our beautiful baby's heart beating!!!!! I was sooo excited and relieved, Praise God!!!!!! Here are some pics!

Fun on the farm!

Today I took the girls to my parents house. My Mom and I took them for a walk to some friends of ours house down the road. They have four children, the youngest is the same age as Anabelle. They have horses, goats, bunnies, cats, and dogs! The girls always have fun when we go there. They also always ask if we can live on a farm when we leave. I would love to buy some animals and live on a mini farm, but living in town, on the main rd, doesn't make that much of a reality. So we get our farm fix at the Hashey farm instead!

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Happy Easter!!

Happy Easter everyone! I hope you all had a great Easter! Despite feeling extremely nauseous these past few weeks I got through the day with only getting sick once! Yay me! Of course all this morning sickness has been completely welcomed to be able to have a healthy baby, that I carry to term. The girls had a great day. We decided to have the Easter bunny come a little later then usual this year. It seems every year that the girls get thier baskets and then we rush off to church, so we thought we'd wait till after church and lunch to have the bunny drop off the baskets. It worked out great, the girls got to spend time opening their baskets and enjoying their contents. Of course the sugar high didn't help with Charlotte's nap time, but oh well! We had a blessed and joyful day, and we have so much to be grateful for this year!! God Bless!

Friday, March 6, 2009

Exciting news!!!!!

So this is the news we found out this morning! We are so excited, nervous, but excited.

Monday, March 2, 2009

Snow Day!!

All Bundled up and ready to brave the storm that lead to a snow day! We didn't stay out
for to long but we had fun and it was a good excuse to come in and drink hot chocolate with Marshmallows!

Friday, February 20, 2009

Feb 09 Renovations

So ever since we moved into our 1916 four square house I have wanted to paint over the green color on my lower cupboards, so that they matched my upper cupboards. (you can see the color on the open door behind my hubby) We finally got things started back in February, the girls even got in on the action! Just two weeks ago we finally got the doors painted. They are still "drying" in the back room that we are planning on tearing down. Someday my cupboards will have doors again! What about the drawers you ask? Don't even go there, they haven't even been painted yet!!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Dancing Princess

My daughters all love to dance but this one is by far the most interested in ballet. She is a dress up queen and when she puts on those princess dresses she promptly asks for music to dance to. It is the sweetest thing to watch. I feel a little bad because I enrolled Ava, my oldest in dance class this year and I was planning on enrolling Belle and Ava into a dance class this summer. Poor Charlotte, I guess you'll just have to keep on practicing at home for one more year kiddo!

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Valentine's Day 2009

Shawn and I took the girls to our PTO's Valentine's dance. We had a pretty good time other then having to wake little miss Charlotte up from her much needed nap to get there on time. Needless to say that made for a cranky baby girl the whole time. Ava and Belle had fun though, they danced together and laughed a lot! Charlotte danced with Daddy and I took a turn dancing with the big girls. The decorations looked fabulous! (Shawn and I helped set up!) :)

On Valentine's day we had heart shaped pancakes made by Daddy, with strawberries and homemade whip cream! YUM! For lunch I made tomato soup with heart shaped grill cheese sandwiches, the tomato soup was a bigger hit then I expected. Ever since I found a house fly in my tomato soup in second grade, I haven't been able to touch the stuff!! I finally got smart and took a picture of dinner. For dinner we made homemade heart shaped pizza, with pizza tossing and all!! Shawn was a cook at a pizza house in high school!! I'm so lucky that I married such a handy man! All in all it was a very nice Valentine's Day. Hope you all had a great one too!

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Rough times

When I lived in Florida, I dreamed of one day moving home to be close to our families. Maine is where we grew up and I really wanted to raise our children there. My dream came true a little less then two years ago, but it's been anything but a dream. The fact that my Mom can pop on in anytime is great, I love that. The fact that we see her every other Friday and have a little girls day is wonderful too. But that is pretty much where it ends, well no wait, there is the fact that after about four years of being a depressed and negative person, nearly impossible to talk to, my Dad is finally coming around. OK, that is it. It seems more and more lately that our decision to move up here was one of the worst ones we've ever made. Between the nine months of living with my parents while we tried to sell our house in Florida, which reaked havoc on my marriage as well as my relationship with my parents, having two miscarriages within a couple of months, and now our house down there looking at possible Foreclosure or Short sale, things have been feeling pretty low lately. I feel like maybe God tried to tell us not to move but we didn't listen. My husband says that God doesn't want us to suffer so he disagrees, but I say that God knew that this is how it would be for us if we moved and he tried to tell us not to, and we didn't listen. That is free will, and that is the consiquences of going down the other path. So many times I pray and wait for an answer, I think I'm listening but I must not be because I feel like I never get an answer. Does anyone else feel like they just can't seem to hear him? I remind myself every time I try to have a pitty party that things could be soooo much worse. My children are all healthy, we are healthy, we still have our home here, we still have jobs and food and clothes. We have so much to be thankful for and I try so hard every time I pray to start my prayers off with how thankful I am. It's just hard, hard to think that we may have to throw away everything we've worked so hard for for the last seven years. I know we will get through this, I know God has his hand in this and he will help us through, it's just hard to know what the right decision is right now. I pray that the answer will come.

Saturday, January 24, 2009


Ok, I am seriously blog illiterate!! I'm trying to add a button to the side of my page and I cannot do it!!!!! RRRRGGGGGG..... Can anyone help me? Please leave me a comment if you can help. Thank you!

UPDATE: Did you see?? I figured it out!!! Yay me!!! I'm seriously addicted to this blog. She is an amazing women and makes me want to be a better mother, wife, human, just plain better about sums it up. You should check out her blog.

Friday, January 23, 2009

Just me and my girls

My sweetheart went to help his twin brother put new windows in his house today. Just in case I didn't mention this before, I live in Maine, my brother-in-law lives in northern Maine. Yeah, Baby, it's cold outside. Why would he want to put his windows in this time of year you ask? Who knows, but my wonderful, generous husband wanted to help his bro so who am I to stand in the way? That meant that I got to have a girls day today. My mom watched the two younger ones this morning while I went to an appointment. Then I took them out to lunch and then grocery shopping, (we're having our best friends over for fondue tomorrow night! Yum Yum) We went and picked Ava up from school and made our way home, Charlotte fell fast asleep in the car so I laid her in her bed and then put in The Sound of Music, which I'm sure will restart the requests for 4 more children to complete the 7 that my daughters see as our complete family! I made dinner while the movie played, went and got Charlotte, changed her diaper, paused movie, served dinner and then the highlight of our day...... we made hot fudge sundaes!!! Yummy! I un-paused the movie and cleaned up and then plopped down on the couch with my girls to finish The Sound of Music. I fell asleep. Two hours of sleep last night finally caught up with me. When the movie ended I ushered my little ones upstairs and patience not being my friend this evening I got them ready for bed as quickly as I could. Prayers, kisses, lights out! Mani/pedi, shows on my DVR, and late night snacks here I come!!!! Oh, and I do miss you baby! :) Night Night

Sunday, January 18, 2009

A Little Bit About Me

Whenever I go to a new blog the first thing I want to do is find out about that person. Sometimes I go through pages and pages of archives before I can figure out who these people are and whether I want to continue reading their blog. So I decided I would devote one whole post to telling the things about me that I think matter.

I am 28, I met my amazing husband Shawn, in high school. I was boy crazy at a very young age. I mean I started chasing them in Kindergarten for heavens sake! I was one of those girls that thought I was going to marry every boyfriend I had, which was only like 3 before I met Shawn. Yeah he was hot stuff back then, well, he still is really! I was a Freshmen and he was a Junior and he had an identical twin brother. Oh my, was I smitten! A mutual friend introduced us and then a few days later he gave me his number! I still get butterflies just thinking about those days! So, I called, I really wanted to go out with this guy!! Our first date was to a Friday night football game. I chewed on his leather key chain the whole night, I was soooo nervous! I would like to say that the rest is history and we lived happily ever after but that wasn't the case. We stayed together for four years, even a year long distance before I graduated and headed out to college where he was at. We lived a year away and then came home, got engaged and then split up. I lived life on the edge, so to speak, while he stayed mostly on the straight and narrow. We got back together, split up again and then managed to find our way back together again. Shawn proposed to me again and I readily accepted. Not every women gets a second chance at her prince charming. We were married 8 mos later in a Catholic mass wedding. It was beautiful, hot, but beautiful, and amazing, I still couldn't believe that I was marrying this man, it seemed like a dream. We moved to South Carolina right after we returned from our honeymoon. Our oldest daughter Ava was born in Jan the following year and when she was 7 mos old we were transferred down to Florida. We lived there for four years and had two more little girls, Anabelle, born 11-04 and Charlotte 11-06. After Charlotte was born we decided it was time to try and move home. Even though we made a great life down in Florida, we missed our families terribly and it was getting harder to go home and visit them. Shawn's company transferred us home to Maine and we lived with my parents for nine months while we waited for our house to sell, in the worst market that this country had seen in years. It still hasn't sold, but we're renting it out. We bought an old, two story four square, we fell in love with the old built ins and beautiful woodwork. It's small for our family but we're planning on adding an addition. I have been a stay at mom since Ava was born but the move to Maine forced me to work part time. I work 25 hours a week at night while Shawn is with the girls. It isn't our ideal but we make it work and remind ourselves that it is temporary. We found out in June that we were expecting number four, but at our 8 week checkup the ultrasound showed no heartbeat on our little bean. It was devastating. I am so grateful for my children, they are healthy, strong, smart and beautiful, I couldn't ask for more, but we really wanted that baby too. We decided to naturally try to prevent until we healed but the day after Christmas we found out we were expecting again, my best friend found out the week before that she too was expecting, her first. We were so excited, but I was so scared, and rightfully so. On Jan 1st I miscarried that baby too. I know that God has a better plan for me then I have for myself, but this has really tested my faith. I don't understand and my heart is broken, but I know he is with me and I have an amazing support system. My dear husband doesn't want us to get pregnant again because he doesn't want to see me go through this again but I think that we both just need some time. I tend to learn lessons the hard way and this second miscarriage has driven me to my knees and forced me to call out to God the Father. I hope and pray that one day he sees fit to bless our family again. For now, I will hold the three little ones I have a little closer and tell them how much I love them a little more, because I know just how precious life is and how quickly these blessings can be gone from our lives.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Hello Blog World!

Well, I decided that 2009 would be the year that I would start a blog. I know it might take up a little more of my precious time, that I seem to have less and less of these days, but I think it'll be worth it. When I was younger I used to write, a lot. I would write short stories and letters to people that I'd never send but were filled with things that I needed to get out. It was my way of journaling. I've tried in recent years to start journaling but I never stick with it, I'm always too tired at the end of the day to grab my journal and write about my day. Also, my husband gets a bit jealous when there is anything/anyone in bed with us at night, he likes me all to himself! :) By the way we have three little girls, so that would be the someone else. Come on now people!! I thought it would be a great gift to myself to have this blog to look back at. Since I plan on posting lots of pictures, what a great way to look back into my "archives" and see how my daughters have changed, how life has changed. I look forward to making new blogging friends and being inspired more and more by the amazing women out there in this blogging world! I do still have a lot to learn though, do I have some questions...... like how do I put a little button on the side of my blog, and how do I make a fancy banner or background, and how do I add a music player?? I'm going to need one whole day to figure this all out, aren't I? OK, well enough lurking on other people's blogs, time to make my own!!!